I haven't gone for a run in a month.
It was horrible. I had a bad day, and I couldn't go more than a few minutes at a time without having to stop and walk for a bit. It really got inside my head and made me feel horrible about myself. Not to mention, I was with George who just happened to be training for his half marathon. I let myself be jealous, embarrassed and started that horrible self defeating cycle that always seems to happen when I start to "fail" at something.
The thing is, I should know better. I KNOW I'm capable of running. I don't think I'm ever going to run a full marathon, but I know perfectly well I'm capable of a 5K. Maybe not at the moment, but I'm not going to get better/faster if I let one bad run defeat me.
I need to remember this. It doesn't matter if it's a 14 minute mile with walking breaks or a 6 minute mile. It's still a freaking mile. Something I wasn't capable of 6 months ago. I need to stop thinking of all the things I can't do, and focus on everything I've over come already.
I had some health problems in High School, and at my followup my surgeon told me I'd still be able to walk, but never do anything too intense- certainly no long distance running or power squats. Well, I did squats and lunges last night at the gym, just to remind myself I could. Now I'm going to go for a run. Just to remind myself I can.